Wierd habit

Strangely I have this wierd habit of always trying to smile, and laugh at lame jokes while in a conversation. I also try too hard to make other people smile or laugh. Hmm..... I have a co-worker who describes me as being bubbly, but really behind all my smiles is an emptiness that's sickening. I try to just be natural and not hide behind this happy facade, but it doesn't seem to work. When I'm with my family though, my facial muscles suddenly relax and I stop being so damn cheery. I wonder if I was like this before? Why the heck do I have this annoying habit? Is it because I want so desperately to please others and appear good natured?

Nothing to do

Im sitting in the office with nothing to do. Karen's out and there's really no work to do. Booooooorrrririiiing!!! Daily ritual has now become: 1. GEt up in the morning, take a bath eat and ride the train and subway to work. 2. Enter the office and read new messsages. 3. If no new message visit the following sights in no particular order: mannypacquiao.ph, friendster.com, nba.com, toronto sun, espn.com, inq7.net, animesuki.com, google, CSC (kung sinipag). 4. When it is 4:00 pm leave immediately. Hmm ... I get paid to waste time. Not a bad deal.

What's FPJ thinking?

Tangina ang kapal talaga ng mukha ni FPJ. Pa-declare declare pa siya na panalo siya sa eleskon. Grabe, what's gotten into this dimwit? Does he actually think he can run the country? Hay naku, kakainis.

Why the blog?

Hmm .. ok. I've just registered for this blog page and now I'm wondering why I did so. I suppose I just wanna write out my thoughts, opinions, feelings, and rants on a day to day basis. This whole thing isn't really for anyone to see, but just for my own satisfaction. What bothers me a bit is that this blog spot is on the internet, which means that any or all of it will be leaked out to the rest of the world, and I dont reall want that to happen. I just wanna write what I really think without being worried of someone seeing it. Oh well, maybe as I get comfortable with this whole thing I can write more openly and honestly and without reservation. Bahala na.